I've listened to this song a hundred times, but for some reason today the lyrics really caught my ear...
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This song makes me think about how much I doubt God and his plan... I often wonder what exactly God wants me to do here... What He has planned for me... Sometimes I wonder if what I am currently doing is what God wants me to do... If He even realizes how hard it is to be a Christian in this world...

Then the first and last parts of the song come to mind...

"The rain falls on the righteous and the wicked
Mine is not to reason why this is
In this I rest in this I find my refuge
That my thoughts and ways are not His
I spend my life on looking up the answers
It’s rare that I can’t find a reason why
But reasons fail at children without mothers
His plan is more than I can know"

"I have spoken too soon put my hand over my mouth
I can’t contend with You
Your ways are so much higher
And we pass through the fire that Christ endured before us
When You were in the wilderness"

Then I realize that this is my sinful self making me doubt God and His plan... His supreme wisdom... Of course He knows what it is like to be a man... He was one... Jesus Christ, and He paid the Ultimate Sacrifice for our sins... He knows the full burden of God's wrath... So who am I to complain that God doesn't know what its like... or How difficult it is to live in this world...

I should be grateful of His love and His willingness to send His one and only Son to die on the cross for my sins, your sins, everyone's sins... Past... Present... Future...

I shouldn't be angry that the life of a Christian is not an easy one... I should be happy that I have been given the opportunity to say that I am a Christian, and that I serve Christ and that He(Jesus) is the ONLY way to heaven...

I shouldn't be ashamed of Christ... Who cares if people stop wanting to talk to me... Who cares if I am labeled a fanatic... Who cares if people see Christ in me and despise me...

I shouldn't care...

But I do...

Everyday I have opportunities to talk to people about Him... Practically on a tee to hit straight into Heaven... but I avoid it... I ignore the conversation when it steers that way... I even participate in the conversations that I shouldn't be participating in...

I am scared what might happen... I'm scared of being labeled... I'm scared of becoming an outcast...

I want to be more bold for Christ, I do... I do... but(i know there shouldn't be any "but") I am scared...

Questions hit my brain all the time...

What if they ask me something I don't know the answer to?
What if I make them think worse of Christ?
What if they see my example and think that is how all Christians are?
What if they say 'yes'?

Right now my heart is aching... I hate what I have become... I hate what I am... I am a coward... I don't deserve anything He has given me... I never have...

*And yes Miss Aura, it is a copyrighted song. I'm not selling it, and its not available for download from this site either. Its only there so you can hear the song...

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